perseverance
looking thru blogs of some of my friends made me notice that mine has been getting less wordier and the entries are littered with more and more pictures...
i guess i've been getting a wee bit lazy lately when it comes to blogging...i was actually contemplating on describing my Gua Temurung itinerary when i was drafting that post a few days ago...i guess the lazy bug got the better of me...the end product was just pictures pictures pictures...hehe
as for updates in the going-ons of adrian's life...
training is narrowed down to 2 runs and 1 gym session per week...weight has finally crossed the 60kg barrier...60.4 being the heaviest i've weighed so far...
havent bought any gundams, transformers in a long long while...main reason being recent releases are of any interest to me...but yeah...havent gone this long without getting any toys...my gundam backlog is down to 8 kits...some of which i hope i can sell off...
talking abt selling...my ebay/yahoo auctions have come to a standstill as well...nothing's moving and nothing's selling...good thing is i managed to offload the whole Final Fantasy collection and all my G1 Tf(except 1) at a profit last year thru this channel...
i've applied for the UTC scholarship at work. if application goes thru, i'll be doing my Masters at NUS this coming 4th August. i've never really liked studying...simply because of exams...i'm all for acquiring knowledge and upgrading yourselves but the fact is no matter how keen you are, at the end of the day we'll be judged by how well you fare in examinations...
but i also believe that there are things in life which you have to do...EVEN if you dont like it...it's that phrase we always hear in the army..."you dont have to like it, you just have to do it"...having a Masters on hand might come in handy (among all the other PhDs and Masters holders....yeah right...) one day...no matter how tiny, it's still a small step in upping my value...
it's been almost a year since AhYee left...as a short recap...i'll just say this...i used to adore her and i was the happiest chap in the world during the few months we were together...sthg happened along the way and we had to go our separate ways...for more details plse visit my previous entries somewhere in March 2007 maybe...
the parting was hard to take at the beginning...it took me about 6 months before i decided to do sthg abt it...to pick myself up and move on...we're still friends now...she's a mom now...her son should be about 5months old now ba...
here are some of the stuff i did while moving on...
created an online profile on sdu online...signed up for msn dating...i did get to befriend 2 girls but nothing seemed to be working on the relationship side...started going out more with my colleagues at work...to some extent, i started to see some tinsy winsy bit of results...
apart from getting to experience more stuff during the outings, i have meimei as my close friend now...as for the relationship side...nothing's confirmed...i'd like to think i've made at least a little bit of progress but as always the more i want sthg to happen, the less likely it is to happen...
but the thing is in order to gain sthg, one has to work hard for it...but at the same time i've to bear in mind i cant overdo it and be too pushy...
working hard for sthg and yet not overdoing it...wanting sthg so much and yet i cannot put all my hopes on it...to question myself if what i've done is "sufficient" and yet you know there is no such thing as who should be the one giving more or receiving more when it comes to relationships...
can u imagine the irony...
but at the very least, i know i wont gain anything by just doing nothing...i know what i want and having made the mistake of giving up too early, i want to persevere this time round...
and i found this on tricia's blog:
"Sometimes, it’s that bit of perseverance that makes the difference from going on and giving up."
nobody said it'd be easy...but i do know that adrian will once again be the happiest chap in the world if everything works out in the end...
