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a test of tolerance

from whatever i can remember from the memories of when i was still very young, i have been the target of my elder brother's nonsense and antics...

there were times where i just could not take it anymore and just shouted back at him and stuff...but nothing serious...no fist-fights or whatsoever...i would have lost to him anyways...he has always been (and still is) bigger sized and stronger than me...

most times i tried enduring...tolerated all his childish jibes at me...i assumed a person would mature with age and maybe all these nonsense will go away when edwin "grows up"...

well...edwin's turning 28 this june...the nonsense level hasnt diminished one bit...his game now is to push me to my limits...test how much irritation i can tolerate...and if i snap...he wins...

been trying new ways of keeping myself out of the "snapping phase"...there are times where i just try to stay away from him...ignore him..."laugh" with him when he makes fun of me...stuff like that...cause i dont want to stoop down to his level...i know he is just waiting for me to break...

as much as i know it isnt right to talk bad behind someone's back...i would hate myself even more if i failed in this test of tolerance...

female advice

got some much needed female opinion and advice this morning...had a good chat with mum about some stuff...after which tricia lent me her ears too...allowed me to see things from another perspective and hopefully aid me to make a better decision...

collected Leonard's and my ths02 convoy after school from utoys...lazy to take my own photos so i borrowed from toy forum...heh



felt hungry after reaching home...but pushed myself to go for the 2.4 run...timing improved a little...10.18...the last 800m was REALLY shiong...totally pooped after the run...finished with usual-stair climb+broad and tug jumps...tired but very satisfied...showered and enjoyed a nice cup of coffee with biscuits...=)

adrian counts his blessings

interesting weekend...interesting enough to make me be thankful of what i am blessed with all over again...

had to trouble Roy again to come over to fix up edwin's pc and take a look at my heatsink...although what i really should do is to start LEARNING how to fix my pc ON MY OWN and be self sufficient and stuff-but...you know...you better frigging start adrian...nabeiz...

really thankful that Roy is always there to lend us a helping hand...really really appreciate it...thanks Roy!!!

Ronald told me something shocking about his family's current status over msn last night...it kinda made me feel extremely blessed when i see how my family has got along all these years...with dad getting retrenched from his old job back then and both mum and dad had to come out to work...and even though both of them do bicker over small matters sometimes...i know mum and dad really care alot about each other and always save the best for me and edwin...

i pray Ronald and his family will pull through this difficult period and i will see how i can help him about that problem he told me about...

clocked an hour for saturday's fun run under the sun...did jiak hong chu route and liang court route...quite breathless at the slopes...have to train more and clock more distance otherwise go marathon sure peng san...tricia advised that must clock at least 50km per week for trng (if i never remember wrongly) and must try out the half marathon this sep first too before taking the full one...

ths02 convoy arriving later today...going to collect it after school...will post pics later...

new toys!!!

yay!!!after a toy drought of almost 2.5mths, finally got myself some new toys!!! (and its only my second toy entry in this blog!!!) 2 to be exact...excellion and downshift from the cybertron line...

expecting my THS02 convoy to be arriving next week too...woopie
my tf wishlist (as of 17th march)

• cybertron optimus prime-get when they slash the price
• cybertron primus-hopefully its cheaper than the takara one...store discounts would come in handy
• alternators optimus prime
• alternators mirage

need to spend toy fund wisely...still got gundam...ALOT of gundam kits havent gotten yet...again store discounts would come in handy...waiting for the robinsons 20+15%off like what they had last year...please have that sale again this june...pwetty pwease...

another one of those fart and poo will come out days...

exactly 1 month after my very first entry to mark that event...i had another fart and poo will come out day today...(well it started last night actually)...all thanks to the milkshake+egg nog+yoghurt dinner i had yesterday...

been controlling my farts today...last night was worse...stomach rumbling like mad...but at least this time round i am more "well-prepared"...have yet to make any messes anywhere...hehe...

went to the ntu career fair today...astar was handing out keychain laser pointers...nearly blinded myself with it cus i thought it was only a keychain until i was pressing pressing it and wondering why there was a covered depression to press and i saw a hole at the base and a red light shot out...oooh...

oh ya...my red swatch watch's straps broke...amazing stuff man...i was looking through my drawer for a notebook and noticed that the straps were abit whitish+moldy looking...so i took it out to wash it off under the tap...just at i was wiping off the whitish stuff the strap just broke...then off came the strap hook...then came bits and pieces of the strap...majiam it disintegrated...basket...60 over bucks and i never really wore it alot...dunno should bring it to get a strap replacement anot...heart pain...ouch

milkshake+egg nog+yoghurt=lao sai

the brownes supplier gave dad some going to expire soon (this friday to be exact) stuff today...

got 1kg tubs of diet-type yoghurt-sugar free fat free in the following flavours-black cherry, strawberry sundae and the light type in banana+passion flavour...honestly the diet type suck...yet to try the light type though...

next up are the supashakes-brownes milkshakes...choc honeycomb and chocolate...
the instructions say "shake until you cannot hear the fluid sound"...something liddat...cus its supposed to give that milkshake feel...creamy i must say...

lastly is the egg nog...woo...mum said its supposed to taste abit of eggs...i just tasted something sweet... heh

didnt take long for the lao sai effect to set in...already visited the loo once just now...think i have to make another trip after this entry....stomach is rumbling....oooh

adrian wants his $400!!!

came back from school today and went for my 2.4km run...did a slightly better timing--10.35 compared to last week's miserable 11.12...

have to train harder...otherwise even catY also no chance of getting gold...have to shave off 40seconds though...hmm...

coffee and corn late lunch after a shiok shower after run...both were extremely tasty...especially the corn...very long never eat le...very sweet somemore...happy like siao...well...ya...corny adrian eating corn...wooh...

today's tricia's first day of her "revised" training program...hope she can stay motivated and be able to stick to it better this time...i know it will be tough-packed training timetable...duties at new-life...weekends at RL...early wake-up timings-(wake up early...eeewww) but let's hope this fine system is going to be of some help...and guess what...i am the official jaga of this fine system...hmm...adrian does what he can to help no?

死读书+读死书=weak in fundamentals

psa interview on friday morning...fumbled at the technical questions...interviewer gave me a choice of wat questions i want...i thought maybe i studying fluids now...maybe got better chance of giving a better answer...

"explain water hammer" ...ooh...just learnt that on thursday...so i explained it the best i could with diagrams...

next choice...thermo..."explain refrigeration cycle"...ooh...learnt that in yr2...stumped...could only scribble out a t-s diagram...screwed...mind block...should have drawn out the pump+compressor+evaporator+some constant enthalpy thing no?...

so i just told the interviewers i cannot remember le...cause very long never touch le...gave a lame excuse say this kind of thing must constantly use then can remember better...

he laughed saying havent grad and everything give back teacher liao...those are fundamentals...once learnt should remember one...if cannot remember means fundamentals are weak...

oh well...

that's what you get for 死读书-ing all your life adrian...

tried out "sprinting" for my run on friday afternoon...6 x 400m with about a minute's rest in between...totally breathless...think shall try to maintain 3 runs per wk...1 for full 2.4km...another for "sprints" and last one for jiak hong chu route...

got my reservist call-up yesterday too through all ways possible...sms+phone call+email...pester you until you acknowledge that you received the notice...jun26-jul01...how nice...

got my amber alert reminder too today...sms+email...apr11-18...exam period...how nice

feeling the heat of trying to keep to what i said about "being thankful"...not as easy as i thought especially when your chips are down...

oh well...

it's times like these when a hobbes would come in handy no?

the type of sleep that makes you even more tired

despite being one of those rare nights in which edwin wasnt home to carry out his late night pc commotion...last night's sleep was horrible...

from what i can remember from my dreams last night(some of the weirdest i ever had)...first i got pestered by some irritating bee which kept clinging onto my back and i couldnt swipe it off...got so irritated that i woke up...next i think i got lost going from somewhere to somewhere...had to walk to through some muddy shortcut afterwhich i had to climb a really narrow roundabout stairway with steps and railings made up of small circular bars...climb until i got so nauseous that i woke up...

next thing i knew my alarm clock went of...woke up feeling like crap...dragged myself out of bed for the 830 lecture today...

oh ya...psa called yesterday saying i got shortlisted for an interview this friday for the post of mechnical engineer...hr lady told to be prepared to answer technical questions cause its a technical post...hmmm

my very first dua zong job interview...hope i dont screw up...

be thankful adrian...

was daydreaming at the table while studying for 474 quiz this morning...thought about my single-ness situation(again)...and i was looking here looking there...see my toys...see my radio...then saw my "desiderata" board...

reading through it again made me realise..."clouded your thoughts are...hmm?"

i guess i always tend to get so tunnel-visioned easily when i feel discouraged...i forget the fact that there are MANY other things in my life which i should be thankful for... and instead i brood on about what i don't have and can't do and stuff...

it's like one of those things which i always hear my mum say to my dad when they are chatting about their work..."nobody gives a fuck when you have been doing good for so long...and when you make one single mistake...they screw you like nobody's business...and nobody gives a shit for all the good performances you have given in the past..."

so i guess same thing here...i should bloody stop my whining, sighing and all the what nots about not getting my bgr application approved and INSTEAD be thankful of ALL the nice things adrian has already been blessed with all this while...my family...the great friends i have...my toys...my studies and all the little little things that has brought me to where i am today...

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

jiak hong chu route under the 3pm sun!!!

brilliant weather again today...went for another fun run under the sun!

making my way through the beginning part of the tanglin route, i saw the uphill slopes as i went past the numerous jiak hong chus...

so i decided to deviate from the usual tanglin route and made my own jiak hong chu route... impromptu one...i see slope i chiong...hohoho

amazing thing is despite being clusterf'ed with so many jiak hong chu over there liao, i still found large areas of land up for sale-and all ready for jiak hong chu development!

anyways...the slopes were really fun...saw many nice nice jiak hong chus...some were extremely huge and stuff...

by the time i reached back delta avenue, i clocked about 36min, then i had about 1.2km of warm down jog...then go home...climbed stairs...shower...

afternoon run+shower never felt so good before...wooh

bgr? what bgr?

on my way back from sch today, i saw something interesting...well at least for me it was...

so i was on 179 sitting behind this girl...after a few stops a guy sat beside her after boarding the bus...after a few more stops the guy started chatting with the girl...i was like...wtf and you know...sigh...

they must have talking something about sch i guess...the girl was looking at her tutorial sheet and i heard something about biomed and stuff...i was listening to my h10 anyways-franz ferdinand's you could have it so much better...solid album by the way...

this event reminded myself of bgr...something that has eluded me ever since the day i was introduced to the world of birds and bees. it also reminded me of how impossible it is for adrian to achieve (or even attempt) what that guy did on the bus.

so what went wrong or what is wrong with adrian? almost 25 and still a zero-fighter...

when i was about 12, i had the impression that by 20+ i should already be attached and going steady with someone...like majiam it was the norm...like how everything else seemed to fall into place...pri sch...sec sch...jc...ns...uni...

so somewhere down the road, adrian's bgr application must have gotten lost...bgr did not fall into place like i thought it would...

so how?no balls la...shy la... girls i like have absolute no interest in me...introvert with nothing much to offer...

currently doing absolutely nothing to address the situation...and my excuse?-cannot means cannot lor-try so hard also no use

wait lor...wait wait wait...like that chinese 4-word thing "shou zhu dai tu"-wait for some rabbit i think-without putting in any effort...already wait so long le...wait some more won't make any diff also...

good things are worth waiting for? i sure hope so...

pissed...well...at least for awhile...

as much as i would like to keep the entries in my blog all happy and cheery and stuff...blah blah...

sometimes things do go wrong...certain things happen that pisses me off...

being a noobie blogger with all the noob enthusiasm-i vent my anger HERE...(i was pressing reeeaaaallll hard on the keyboard...ha...ya right...)

anyways...just felt pissed...had one of those feelings whereby i just felt unappreciated...why i even bothered in the first place...that things didn't turn out the way i expected...blah blah blah...

cannot means cannot lor...try so hard for fug...hor? worry this worry that...for what...

ok...at least i feel abit better now...time to make amendments to my fyp 1st draft...