an immensely miserable feeling

what started off as a not too bad day took a turn for the worse in the late afternoon which then became nonsensically lousy during the evening...

was awoken by my considerate neighbour for the 2nd wkend straight at abt 7 with the blasting of the sermon again...was a little annoyed but at least i was abt to wake up for work le...

edwin still sleeping so he was well pissed, so after having my breakfast i thought i'd just pop by next door and tell her nicely to turn down the volume...i knocked but no answer...volume went down for a few minutes...then BOOOM-blasting resumed!!...hohoho...i was already awake and getting ready for work so it didnt really bother me...but edwin buay tahan and went next door to knock again...and i think this time she answered and lowered the volume...

work at motherland today was great...that feeling of knowing what to do, that feeling of being taken care of and looked after by boss kevin, yvonne and uncle tan...no matter how tired i am after 5 days at tos, it's always a joy to spend my saturdays at motherland...

then it all just went downhill after that...

that feeling of knowing that you're just not good enough is just downright depressing...to know that you are just part of the queue...and then try laughing it off by consoling yourself saying that your turn will come-you just have to be patient...

then in the evening edwin chosed a really bad time to tell mum abt this morning's incident and my parents just freaked out...for some reason all the pent up frustration against edwin from my parents just surfaced...everything he said didnt get through to them and everything just turned into a heated exchange of words...nothing came out right...everything just came out all wrong...

and it all started with a little bloody knock...wtf...

sprints!

feeling the strain from yesterday's gym...so i did 6x400m sprints instead today
1.23, 1.20, 1.22, 1.18, 1.26, 1.23 with 2.5min rest in between...after that did another 800m slow jog as warm down

upcoming events for the next few months...
grandma's birthday - lunch this sunday
TOS bowling competition next sat - i'll be going there to wash drains
GDT course - in-house course...nooooooooooooo
TOS D&D
dad's birthday - i'm planning to bring my parents out for a nice meal--any suggestions?
stan chart marathon

adrian's 2 day "vacation"

spent the past 2 days at holiday inn parkview hotel attending a iso14001+ohsas18001 internal auditor course...whole jasmine suite catered only for the 3 of us from TOS...hurhur

very very well fed during the course...hohoho...everyday they prepared 2 tea breaks and buffet lunch...hohohoho

and what did i learn from the course...
1. our plastic bags take 1000 yrs to disintegrate on its own
2. sg no longer uses landfills to dump its trash
3. statistics are like bikinis-what's revealed is suggestive, what's not revealed is vital
4. attending this course only qualifies me to be a "trained" internal auditor-not a competent internal auditor

it's back to tuas tmr le...haiz...for the first time in 3 mths i actually got to wake up on wkdays AFTER the sun is up AND i did not feel hungry THROUGHOUT the day...

out-house courses are fun!!!

can someone teach adrian how to swim freestyle?

awoken by my thoughtful neighbour who was blasting a sermon recording at 6+ in the morning...

got out of bed by 7.05 to go for an early swim at delta...pool opens at 8 so i thought i'd go look see how's the morning crowd like...

reached abt 8.15 and i can see 2 swim classes going on at the small pool...a number of uncles and aunties at the big pool...

so apart from trying to siam the afternoon crowd...the main reason for today's swim was to find out whether i can do freestyle anot..and hopefully not too many pple will see me making a fool out of myself....hehe

basically i have a bad coordination problem...must kick continously-left arm pull-face down-breathe out thru nose-right arm lift-face turn right and breathe thru mouth-kick continuously...argh...

after awhile i began to drink water...lost my breath and started to kalang kaboh...so after barely a combined distance of not more than 50m of attempted "freestyle swimming" and changing to froggy in between when i cannot take it anymore...i decided to just swim froggy...did 4 sets of 4x50m and decided to call it a day...the swim classes moved over to the big pool le and the pool was pretty filled up le...and it was only 9!!

reached home, drank protein whey (new bottle opened!!! cookies and cream..yum yummmm-champion is definitely better than optimum)washed clothes, cleaned up the shelf in the bathroom (the amount of dust collected there was amazing)...

did some wts, crunches, chinups, pushups...then went for short run...did tanglin route w/o slopes in 38.09...

going grocery shopping later...gonna continue my NG 1/144 m1 astray kit now...i cant believe it doesnt have any elbow and knee joints!...basket...the gundam wing series's NG 1/144 had lor...

ohoh and i preordered an MG 1/100 strike gundam w/ IWSP!!! akan datang in oct...woohoo

做工一条虫， 跑步就一条龙

i have succumbed to the fact that i can never get enough sleep on working days...

if i sleep earlier, it means i'll have less "personal" time...it'll make me feel like i havent done much for 1 day...work liao come back for awhile then sleep le...

so from 0530 till 1550 mon-fri i'm pretty much half awake...0600-0700 and 1600-1700 i'll be knocked out on the company bus...

then on run trng days i'll somehow be able to muster whatever 精神 i have left and become very awake for my runs...

today clocked 9.48, 10.32, 10.27...2nd set was quite a torture...quads were so tight and i could feel sthg wrapped around my heart/lungs area...must be that icky sticky piece of carrot cake i wolfed down just before the run doing some nonsense inside my system....

on the whole i just dont feel sick and tired of runs no matter how torturous they can become sometimes...but somehow i just cant say the same for work hor...haha

that plateau feeling

seems like ages since i've bought any new toys...
muscle development is crawling...
still looking very scrawny...
weight is persistently hovering at 53-54-55...
seems like whey and gym and creatine isnt gonna do any miracles any time soon...
problem lies with diet maybe? not enough meat intake? the only meat i seem to be getting these days is the small pathetic serving during lunch from the mixed vege stall...
woke up in the middle of the night with a growling stomach for the upteenth time this week...
and i cant even get rid of it with the usual gulp of water...
no choice but to get out of bed to pinch sthg from the fridge...
precious sleep is again affected...
tanglin route with slopes today-42.51
still have a mountain load of stuff to learn at work...
under-qualified "engineer"...this also dunno that also dunno...
that feeling of not being in control is just crappy

accumulated lack of sleep is a bad thing

so tired...even though today woke up at 730...also so tired...

was quite busy at motherland today cus yvonne was on mc...boss kevin said he was feeling happy and ordered canadian 2for1 pizza...hurhur...

made a quick trip to rl to grab muay's singlet for size exchange at queensway...lucky never rain when i was walking home from queensway cus sky was sooooooo black...

came back pooped and pampered myself with a 2 hr nap...

longest nap i've taken in donkey months i think

walk walking walked

slept before 11 last night...still woke up sooooooooo tired this morning
even napped twice after gym yesterday...once while i was doing my crunches (yes i fell asleep while lying on the floor in between sets) and another time at ard 9.45...

the company bus broke down on the way home today...was stuck near nus that area for abt 30min before the remaining pple who were still left on the bus decided to share cabs...8 of us so 2 cabs just nice...

i dropped at queensway to pick up muay's reward...then plugged in my h10 and walked home...45min walk...but got music so it's pretty ok...

by the time i reached home i was famished...luckily dad's friend alicia dropped by with some delectable munchies...after dinner i popped by queenstown pool to pass muay her reward..so it was another 2 sets of walking....hohoho...walk there walk back....with my h10 of course...

origami bird thingys

woke up today feeling soooooooooooooo tired...
woke up from the 2 sleeps on the company bus feeling soooooooooo tired...

interval timings for this evening 10.05, 10.57, 10.05... was so shaq and demoralised during and after the 2nd set...but i think the 5min rest helped and i told myself to just finish up the last set in sub11...

after that stairs climb...no broad jumps and tugjumps cus i did them before the run...reached home and had 2 refreshing mugs of h2o and whey...bathed and had tau suan which mum prepared...shiok

then mum taught me how to make those origami bird thingys...
this was what i made and i taught her how to use the digicam and this pic was taken by her

so conclusion of yesterdays and today's photo taking--at night cannot take photo at home...use flash the pics come out overexposed...dont use flash the pics come out dark dark

my blue suede shoes

decided to forgo the NB classics and got myself a pair of adidas instead

ok the color's way off in this pic...low batt in digicam actually causes such problems...hmm...
well the shoe's supposed to look blue anyway...

chaos gundam...completed last week...

another wkend just flew by...

almost half a saturday spent at motherland...at night had a small gathering with my lsc frens over a sakura buffet dinner...

sunday morning washed clothes and mopped the floor...did abit of stuff i brought home from work...only did a little bit before i got tired and decided to take a nap...wanted to go for run when i woke up but it rained...so i napped somemore...woke up and the sun was up...just nice

completed holland v route in 1hr 26s...stairs...reached home had a h2o and choc whey, bathed and went to meet guorong to collect my policy...

we had a nice long chat and updated each other on what's been happening in our lives lately...after that jalaned abit at suntec and raffles city...

the NB concept stores didnt carry the design i wanted...but i did see a not too bad pair of sneakers from adidas though...cheaper than the NB classics and i think the soles can last longer too...

dropped by cold storage to get some groceries and after that had quite a miserable dinner (as compared to the feast i had at sakura--hohoho) eggs+veges+rice...

so there...another wkend gone...and it's back to work again tmr...haiz

drool drooling drooled

totally knocked out on the bus home today...so knocked out that i drooled all over myself...

i was awoken by my subconscious mind telling me that my drool was dripping dripping and i suddenly woke up--slurped up the dripping saliva--wiped my mouth...then i went back to sleep...hohoho...

when i got off the bus i noticed a wet patch on my shirt...hohoho...no need to guess where that came from...

decided to do intervals today...run was pretty good...i managed to push myself to finish all 3 sets properly with timings of 9.50, 10.07, 10.07...after that was stairs...broadjumps and tugjumps...

have been pondering on which shoes to get to replace my converse which already has a gaping hole at the soles...so i made a trip down to queensway to recce the NB classics sneakers i've been eyeing...

but to my disppointment, none of the shops carried the exact same model designs i found thru the NB sites...price was a little pricey too imo...129 retail price...kaoz...supposing they give 30% discount its still 90 over bucks...more ex than my sauconys...how can liddat...

so anyway maybe i'll drop by the NB concept store to see what other models they have and ponder...if i'm going to get a pair of pricey sneakers i jolly well get a pair which i like

"我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的..."

absolutely frigging mesmerised by 李圣杰's 最近...i totally feel for the song man...haha... haiz...

so anyway i slept early last night and woke up at 9 today...have been waking up early everyday for the past 2 consecutive weeks so i thought i better get some proper sleep replenishment and that meant no alarm clocks...

unfortunately i was awoken in the middle of the night-twice by my growling stomach and another time by mozzie bites-fugz...

did the holland V route in the afternoon today...struggled with left knee pain and heavy legs...finished the run in 1:04:07...

started on my chaos gundam kit in the evening...wkend just flashed right by...sipei fast sia...haiz...

shit run under the sun

havent been doing any fun run under sun for quite awhile...today's attempt was quite shitty

for starters i didnt hydrate myself enough before the run...i pulled my left butt muscles after doing my broad and tug jumps before the run...my legs felt very very heavy during the run...and i was feeling somewhat pretty unmotivated...so despite leaving out the slopes today, i took 42.38 to complete the tanglin route...

so excuses aside...tmr i will attempt to complete the holland V route if the weather permits...have to start clocking mileage for stan chart le...

last night weiming, shirong, yongliang, jeffrey and i had a short gathering to celebrate jeff's belated bday...we had dinner at this indian restaurant called "the banana leaf apolo"...it was packed and we had to queue to get seats...

we had fish head curry, masala prawns, tandoori chicken, gobi sthg sthg-a vege dish which tasted like carrot cake to me, mango lassi, free flow of indian keropok and the rice came with 2 side veges...

i liked the gobi vege dish alot...the fish head curry was great as well (while it was hot of course)...we wondered why our "large" fish head curry order was the same size as the "small" ordered by the indian uncle who sat beside us...hurhur...good thing was we were only charged for 1 glass of mango lassi (which tasted great but cost $4)...so i think it balanced out...hohoho

after a fulfilling dinner we went to kim seng bowl...the guys played number ball while i sat at the side to watch...was so tired that i fell asleep at the table...heh...

so i went home first at 12+...washed my face, brushed teeth, changed and went straight to bed without bathing...heh...then today 730 wake up to go motherland work...