that plateau feeling

seems like ages since i've bought any new toys...
muscle development is crawling...
still looking very scrawny...
weight is persistently hovering at 53-54-55...
seems like whey and gym and creatine isnt gonna do any miracles any time soon...
problem lies with diet maybe? not enough meat intake? the only meat i seem to be getting these days is the small pathetic serving during lunch from the mixed vege stall...
woke up in the middle of the night with a growling stomach for the upteenth time this week...
and i cant even get rid of it with the usual gulp of water...
no choice but to get out of bed to pinch sthg from the fridge...
precious sleep is again affected...
tanglin route with slopes today-42.51
still have a mountain load of stuff to learn at work...
under-qualified "engineer"...this also dunno that also dunno...
that feeling of not being in control is just crappy