an immensely miserable feeling

what started off as a not too bad day took a turn for the worse in the late afternoon which then became nonsensically lousy during the evening...

was awoken by my considerate neighbour for the 2nd wkend straight at abt 7 with the blasting of the sermon again...was a little annoyed but at least i was abt to wake up for work le...

edwin still sleeping so he was well pissed, so after having my breakfast i thought i'd just pop by next door and tell her nicely to turn down the volume...i knocked but no answer...volume went down for a few minutes...then BOOOM-blasting resumed!!...hohoho...i was already awake and getting ready for work so it didnt really bother me...but edwin buay tahan and went next door to knock again...and i think this time she answered and lowered the volume...

work at motherland today was great...that feeling of knowing what to do, that feeling of being taken care of and looked after by boss kevin, yvonne and uncle tan...no matter how tired i am after 5 days at tos, it's always a joy to spend my saturdays at motherland...

then it all just went downhill after that...

that feeling of knowing that you're just not good enough is just downright depressing...to know that you are just part of the queue...and then try laughing it off by consoling yourself saying that your turn will come-you just have to be patient...

then in the evening edwin chosed a really bad time to tell mum abt this morning's incident and my parents just freaked out...for some reason all the pent up frustration against edwin from my parents just surfaced...everything he said didnt get through to them and everything just turned into a heated exchange of words...nothing came out right...everything just came out all wrong...

and it all started with a little bloody knock...wtf...