Murphy's Law

for the past 2 days, in between feeling sick, sleeping and what nots...i had alot of time to think...i thought about alot of things...most times i thought about her...and i remembered this entry Ian made in his blog sometime ago about Murphy's Law

i quote from wikipedia:
It is most often cited as "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong" (or, alternately, "Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time," or, "Anything that can go wrong, will," or even, "If anything can go wrong, it will, and usually at the most inopportune moment")

then i thought of my relationship i have with huiyi...indeed...everything and anything that could go wrong went wrong...

for the first time i gathered enough balls to ask a girl out face to face...i find out she has a bf...

when we were getting really close, she finds out she's pregnant...

when i'm so sure she's the one for me, she has to return home to get married...

friends have been telling me to forget about her...that there will be another one...i understand where they are coming from but moving on is sthg extremely tough for me...because for the times we were able to spend together, she really made me feel complete...and that naive side of me still really hope that someday we will be together again...

i told myself this morning, my door will always be open for her but at the same time i have no other choice but to keep a look out for other gals...

growing old is scary...but growing old without a partner is even scarier